Tuesday, December 15, 2009

A Different Person

I feel like I'm a completely different person than I was just 3+ weeks ago. B made a comment the other day that I'm "more lively" now, like I used to be. I knew I was stressed and miserable but I didn't realize how much it affected my life outside of the office. I'm beginning to comprehend how truly unhappy I was because I feel so different now. I've missed this fun, happy, energized person I used to be.

I'll be even happier when I can get my unemployment claim filed. I had to wait for the lousy 3 week severance to be up before I could even file my claim. I'm a little stressed over the financial situation with the holidays here but I'm sure I'll calm down about it when I have a check coming in even though it won't come close to the salary I was making.

I've been getting very good use out of my gym membership. I actually went twice yesterday. *shocker* Today I spent 90 minutes there (50 on the elliptical and and 40 on the treadmill).

My former office manager called me yesterday to tell me he gave my name to someone who was looking to hire. I thanked him for the referral but told him I was going to try to find a job where I won't have to look at a lawyer. I've been abused enough over the years.

I was supposed to go in the office for the staff's Yankee Swap today but decided I didn't want to see anyone badly enough to risk seeing someone I might tell to go F*** himself. I'm so happy to be out of there.

I think it's about time I took some measurements and pictures so I can track my progress because there are big changes going on here. Stay tuned.



  1. That is so good to hear!

    Looking forward to seeing you and the new stats.

  2. Wow, that's all very good news. And you're taking good care of yourself too (by staying away from lawyers). ;-)

  3. It's amazing how work spills over into our 'regular' lives without being totally conscious of it. Glad you are doing better!

  4. What a great epiphany. It's an amazing feeling when you compare how crappy you felt before and how much better you are now. It should make you so proud of your progress!

    I'm stuck in a money rut too, so don't feel alone their either.

    I look forward to seeing some progress pics/measurements!



  5. So glad to see such a positive post from you!

    It's amazing how much stress can affect you without your even being aware of it.

    I need to get back to working out--it's been on the back burner for far too long!

  6. Hi. Glad you're feeling better!

    Bearfriend xx

  7. I know how liberating it feels to leave a job you don't like. It made me decide not get a job that entailed doing things I didn't like to do.

    I hope you enjoy this new open door. Make the most of it and don't comprise your new life decisions. Be strong and don't be discouraged.


  8. So, so happy for you! It sounds like you are much, much better off being out of that job. Plus your positivity is infectious :) Go you!!

  9. Hi, I'm new to your blog. It sounds like you've been through a lot recently. It's amazing that you have continued to work out and keep your spirits up. You are a real inspiration!

  10. I can tell a difference in your posts! I've always found your posts insightful, and certainly connected with the stress issue, but you seem much more light-hearted now. Just in time for the holidays, too, and a brand new year. :)

  11. Great to hear you are feeling so good!

  12. So happy for you, awesome news.

    When I was recovering from surgery this august I was off the for the whole month. It was like I was a different person. I wasn't anxious, I didn't have that left over feeling of shame from dealing with passive agressive weirdness all day and so I had more energy and enthusiasm for the things that do matter to me.

  13. Haha, I love the fact that you want a job where you don't have to look at a lawyer. Congratulations on knowing what you want and moving on with your life!
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  14. It's like the proverbial light bulb going on when you realize how toxic a job was and how miserable it made you. I was actually embarrassed to realize what a pill I must have been before finally leaving my crappy retail job. I'm so glad you're enjoying being out of there! :)

  15. I'm so happy for you that you broke free of the clutches of a toxic workplace. I remember reaching a similar epiphany when I worked for Mother Corp. When I finally gave notice, it was like I had turned on a bright, warm light in my life that had been shuttered for the entire time I was working at that miserable place.

    Coincidentally, yesterday I found myself playing with our youngest son in a lovely downtown park just across the street from my old office. I was taking pictures and enjoying the moment - something I could never do when I worked there - and I looked over at the building and idly thought about popping in to say hello.

    Within a blink of an eye, I scotched that idea and returned to my munchkin. They can sixth-letter-of-the-alphabet themselves. I've got a life now.

    Congratulations on this new chapter in your life. You'll rock in it, I'm sure.

  16. that is so wonderful, and it must feel so nice to feel like yourself again. I know that when I am away from work for a while, I feel like "me" again and it is the work environment that turns me into something I hate. so Im glad that you have been able to return to who you really are without all the crap getting in the way.

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  19. Katie J: Just trying to work up the courage to face the numbers.

    POD: Let's hope I can stay away from them for good.

    Lori: Maybe I can get a work from home gig like you have. Do you have to deal with any doctors 'cause I hear they are just as bad as the lawyers sometimes.

    JewliaGoulia: It is amazing. Hope you and I both get out of the money rut soon but glad to know I have company.

    Manuela: I hope to use my time off wisely like you did. Maybe I should look into teaching now?

    Bearfriend: Thanks for all your support through it all.

    Denise: I'm going to do my best not to compromise my new life for the next paycheck.

    Crazylady: I am so much better off now. They really did me a favor even if I had to suffer for it for so long.

    Karen: I hope to live up to being an inspiration someday.

    Hilly: Cheers! Have a drink for me.

    Tricia: I love it too. It is amazing.

    Cammy: I feel much more light hearted and can't wait to see what this new year will bring.

    Crabby: I feel good, na.na.na.na.na.na, na, like I knew that I would now ....

    Brooke: Is it even possible to leave the work stress at work and not let it slip into our home life?

    Stephanie: Let's hope I never have to sell out to the lawyers ever again.

    Chibi Jeebs: It is embarassing to think of how miserable I was. Glad we have both moved on from that.

    Carmi: Glad you had the joy of the same epiphany when leaving Mother Corp. Life is too short to be so miserable so many hours of the day. They can definitely sixth-letter-of-the-alphabet themselves.

    I'm looking forward to spending more time behind the lens and concentrating on my photography. You always inspire me to look at things in a new light. Thank you!

    Heather: I pray you are able to find a better place to earn a paycheck and get out of that stressful work environment.

    cmoursler: I'm a big fan of yours but don't comment much. Glad to see you here.


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