Still Resisting ...

I'm on a roll. It has been 5 weeks in a row I have resisted the temptation of the free muffins. I was so stressed out today and almost caved in but I flexed my resisting muscle and stuck with the fruit. It helped that by the time I went back into the lounge ready to stuff my face the muffins were gone. It was a close one but I did it. Now if I could only control myself every other day and night of the week I'd really be on a roll. Baby steps ...

Nothing is Free

My firm has laid off workers, cut out their 401(k) match and scaled down and cut back many other things but the one thing they haven't cut back on is free breakfast on Thursday mornings.

The Thursday morning feast consists of fresh hot bagels, croissants, pastries, muffins and big platters of fresh fruit. I always try to stick to the fruit and can usually get out of the lounge without grabbing some calorie bomb but the last few weeks I had been indulging in half of a delicious carrot muffin along with my fruit. I knew I shouldn't but I did and it needed to stop.

I'm happy to tell you I resisted the urge to indulge today. I was determined to stay away from those muffins because we all know that muffins, even "carrot" muffins, are just cake in disguise and there is nothing healthy about them. I know better. Some Thursdays I would just eat my regular oatmeal breakfast so I wouldn't be tempted by all the fattening breakfast treats but I needed to work my resisting muscles and just say no. It's hard to pass up something for free in these tough economic times but even if it doesn't cost me money it cost me dearly in other ways.

I'm happy I was able to resist those yummy muffins and just enjoy the fresh watermelon, cantaloupe, berries and honeydew melon instead. I had to stay away from the lounge for the rest of the day because I knew if I went back in there I would be tempted but those muffins. Getting out of there with just my fruit was enough temptation.

I need to remember that just because it is free doesn't mean I have to eat it. It is not calorie free and I would need to pay for it in sweat and tears.

No more free muffins for me!

Happy Easter!

Hope you all have a Happy Easter whether you are celebrating it this weekend, next weekend, two days ago or not at all.

I'm going to do my best to stay far away from the Peeps (which I don't even like but usually end up eating), marshmallow eggs (I've already had a few of these this past week), chocolate bunnies, jelly beans, Cadbury eggs (icky cream and not even tempting so resisting these should be easy for me) and other chocolaty goodies.

I'm looking forward to getting together with the family but wish it didn't always have to revolve around an all day food feast. I must resist the urge to stuff everything down my throat. It is just another Sunday and I won't use the holiday as an excuse to eat everything in sight all day long. I must resist the temptation and show a little restraint. Just because they only sell this stuff this time of year doesn't mean I need to eat it all. Wish me luck.

Enjoy!

Weekend Weakness

I was so proud of myself for not having any chocolate all week. I didn't buy candy to give out to the trick-or-treaters because I couldn't trust myself with it in the house (sorry kids). I know if it is in my house I will eat it even if I did buy those gross gummy things or something I didn't like. It was Halloween and there was chocolate everywhere. Every office I went to and every desk I passed had a bowl of something sweet trying to whisper sweet nothings to me. I resisted, I felt good, I made it through the week without giving in to all the temptation.


Unfortunately, my willpower didn't last through the weekend. I had ice cream, I had bread, I had pasta, I had more food than I should have but it wasn't a total disaster. I did eat all that stuff but I had reasonable portions so it wasn't a complete swan dive off the diet wagon just a little bump in the road.


I have been trying to look at the bright side of my weight loss efforts. I haven't been beating myself up because I haven't seen any real downward movement in the scale. I haven't used the lack of weight loss as an excuse to say "screw it." I'm not giving in this time. I've been drinking more water, I've been eating more fruits and vegetables, I've been eating much less sugar and simple carbs, and I have been getting more exercise. I'm trying to get satisfaction just going through the motions of eating right and moving move. Eventually the scale will have to give in and show me a loss, right?


I'm afraid to go all out, hard core, balls to the walls weight loss mode because that is what I've always done in the past and look where I ended up. I would be on a plan, any plan, and follow it religiously. I would lose "x" number of pounds and gain it back plus more. I know if I completely cut out the sugar and carbs I will lose weight fast but I want to lose it permanently this time. I can't keep doing the same things and expecting different results. I'm going to try the (very) slow and steady routine and see what happens.