I thought that turning 40 (and 30 and 20) would have given me the kick in the ass I needed to get serious about getting this weight off permanently but I'm staring down the barrel of 41 and I am no closer to reaching my goal than I was almost a year ago.
I know the older I get the harder it is to lose weight (as if it is ever easy) and yet I'm still stutter stepping around and around. I'm not getting any younger and each time I lose a substantial amount of weight only to gain it back it really screws up my metabolism making it harder and harder.
I've gotten so much support from people who have been in these fat shoes and succeeded and those who are going through the process (thank you). I've read hundreds (thousands?) of blogs proving it is possible but despite my desire to join this group I am still fat. I am at a loss as to why I haven't put in the effort needed to do the things I need to do to reach this goal if it is so important to me. I'm constantly thinking about it but I'm not aggressively, faithfully and wholeheartedly focusing on getting it done.
What the hell am I waiting for? How long can I keep this goal from alluding me? What am I waiting for? When the hell will I figure this out? NOW sounds good.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
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it definitely is hard, and everyone has things that make it that much harder (age, gender, medical problems, support system, whatever!). It is a scary task sometimes and so hard. it is definitely exhausting and unless you have that right mindset, its hard to be up for it. it doesnt matter what your age though, its never too late and its not too late for you either. 41 isnt old by any means so its never too late to get started. even if you reach your goal by the time you are 80, at least you did it and I bet you are that much healthier and live that much longer. You WILL Find that motivation and you will do it.
ReplyDeleteI'm convinced that everyone has that click moment, that one nanosecond of time when it suddenly becomes clear what we must do to succeed. Mine didn't come until I was 48, but I'd rather have it then than not at all. You'll find your way. Just keep doing the best you can at any given moment and know that you will achieve your goals, some way, somehow.
ReplyDeleteCammy said it so well, you'll have that moment when everything is set up just perfectly for you to get into the groove of things.
ReplyDeleteFor me it was a coworker telling me she was thinking of joining WW. Right then and there I blurted out "I'll go with you" and the rest, as they say, is history!
"each time I lose a substantial amount of weight only to gain it back it really screws up my metabolism making it harder and harder"
ReplyDeleteI am so with you on this. I have not gotten around to writing yet on my blog about all my previous diet attempts (it is something I intend to document at some stage) and the fact in 2005, 2006 and 2007 I started previous diets which all resulted in between 30 lbs - 50 lbs being lost and then put back on again.
I also feel, like you, that now I'm in my 40s the body is fighting much harder against my best efforts.
It is annoying and frustrating but I think we just have to KNUCKLE DOWN !
I am right there with you, but starring at the 40 barrel (triggered to go off in two weeks). I have the same constant thoughts and am working at firguring it out. I have to say, one book that has really made me think in a new way is The Traveler's Gift by Andy Andrew. I recommend it for everyone frustrated with the current state of life. It's a definite stepping stone for me across the raging river of weight loss.
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