Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Happy Birthday to Me ...

42 years ago today I came into this world fighting. I was a twin but, unfortunately, the other baby didn't make it through the delivery.
Yikes! 42!!! I can't believe I'm 42 and still fighting with my body.

I don't think I've really looked forward to my birthday since I turned 21. After you hit all the milestones the only thing the day of your birth marks is getting another year older. I suppose the alternative of not having a birthday is worse so I guess I should just enjoy it.

I started this blog not long after I turned 40 and thought I would certainly be at my goal by now. Here we are 2 years later and I've lost a total of 8 pounds. Well, I've lost much more but gained it back over and over again. You know the drill, right? I need to get off this damn roller coaster I've been riding for so long.

So, I'm still fat and now I'm another year older. I know it isn't going to get any easier and the longer it takes me to get a grip on things the harder it's going to get. I'm sick of struggling and just want to get to a place where I can be happy with what I see in the mirror. I don't want to be "skinny" I just want to feel good when I look in the mirror, I want my clothes to fit, I want to feel strong and know I'm living a healthy life.

I've been on vacation this week and had planned on going to the gym every day and planned on really pushing myself to a higher level but I've been sick (coughing and wheezing) since early Sunday morning so it hasn't happened. I couldn't even get out of bed Monday let alone get to the gym. UGGH! I'm feeling a bit better today so I'm going to try to get a workout in but I don't think I can push it too much with such diminished lung capacity. I'll probably just take a walk and try to do some light weights. Every little bit helps, right?
Well, I'm not giving up the fight. The fat will lose this battle. I am making a vow that I will not be writing a similar post on my 43rd birthday. I'm not getting any younger.


  1. Happy Birthday. =)

    I'm sorry you're not feeling the best, sending healing vibes your way.

    Here's to a great year, great health, and obtaining your goals!

  2. Happy Birthday to you!

    Hope you get better soon - that is my present to you - healthy wishes x

  3. Happy Birthday and feel better!

    About your goals for the 43--you can totally do it! The hard part is just starting but once you're in the groove, watch out :)

  4. Happy Birthday! I hope you had a fabulous day!

    Don't feel so bad about not being at goal yet. It sounds like a fresh wave of determination is sweeping over you now... and I KNOW that next year on your birthday post you are going to be reporting a splendid loss!

    Just take it one day at a time and do the best that you can each day... and the results will be sure to please! :)

  5. Happy Birthday!!!

    I hope you are feeling better soon. It's always lousy to feel crappy on your birthday.

    I love the goals you have for your 43rd birthday! You can do it! Next year at this time you will be Fab-u-less! :D

    Get well soon and once again, Happy Birthday!

  6. Happy birthday BeautifuL!!!

    Celebrate the 8 lbs you have lost in your journey thus far and look onto the future!! :>

    May this be a wonderful year for you in every single way~~~~★

  7. Happy Birthday! 21 (again),eh?
    This is the year of great losses on the weight department... I'm out to lose all my excess, if you are! I know I need to keep going until I'm done. Keep on track and focus on your goals... how much better will you feel when you are lighter?

  8. Thank you all for the birthday wishes and encouragement to keep the faith on this LONG weight loss journey of mine. Even if I don't comment often on your blogs I am always reading and there supporting you in spirit. Oh yeah, Jem, 21 again and again and again ...

    I'm so thankful to have so much support from you all. Thank you!!!

  9. Happy (belated) birthday!

    I'm in the same boat as you - staring down a birthday and realizing that my goals from a few years ago have not been met. I have just posted on my blog about my renewed emphasis on getting fit not fat.

    I hope that you have gotten better and have started to see some progress on the weight loss front.

    I am a new subscriber and will be checking out your archives.

    I want to send you good health vibes and also know that you are not alone in your renewed pursuit of getting the weight off so that you get healthy:)

  10. Happy birthday! and dont look back on the things you havent done, just look forward at what you can accomplish in a year. make this a great year!


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