Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I Want It NOW!

I'm so sick and tired of it all. I want to throw my scale out the window and watch it smash into a a thousand little pieces. I'm frustrated that one slip up in my diet negates a week's worth of hard work. If being fat is so unhealthy, why do our bodies fight so hard to keep it?

I want to eat what I want in reasonable portions. I want to stop the binge monster that forces food down my throat until I feel sick. I want to feel good about myself. I want to like what I see in the mirror. I want to be able to wear all the clothes that are bursting out of my closet. I want to stop the crazy thoughts in my head. I don't want to fight this fight every waking moment of every single day. I want to stop whining about my weight and get it under control already.

WHAAAAAA! I sound like the spoiled brat, Veruca. I want it and I want it NOW!

Thanks for coming to my pity party. Hopefully I'll have something positive to post soon.


  1. Sorry, you're not feeling good. This weight thing is so so hard, so its ok. Vent as much as you need to!!! It'll make you feel better. It isnt fair...this weight thing, but...we just have to deal with it. Better to stop it now and deal with it than let it get out of control. You can do it....everyone slips up sometimes.

  2. Can I join you. I swear if I hear another ad/marketer saying that losing weight is easy, I think I'll deck them.

    You can do it - we all slip up.

  3. The binge monster visited me this weekend--he came with a couple of girlfriends!

    Hate him but love Veruca. Johnny Depp was a bit too creepy for me so I'll always love the Gene Wilder version best :)

  4. Rant away lovely!!!!!!! thats what blogland is for!

    (my nickname as a kid was Verucca Salt!!!)


  5. Thanks for your comment on my blogpost yesterday.

    Sounds like you are going thru some crap too!
    Take good care! Nurture yourself with anything but food!

  6. You write words that you could have stolen right from my mind.

    I know it is hard, and I just can't express how exactly your feeling match my own, every word, every frustration you mentioned. I broke down the other day and just cried and cried about how I am making no progress regardless of how hard I am working and I just wanted to thrown in the towel and give up completely.

    Someone held my hand, said there there, and kept me from doing that - well we are all here to hold yours and help you through this. I think our struggle is one of the stupidest things we have to struggle with and talk about a major stress in our lives, every waking moment of our lives... and yet we get stuck with this stupid struggle regardless of how stupid it is. Regardless of what we do every day to be good people, to do right things, we are still punished with this stupid, frustrating, unending struggle.

    Hang in there, and vent away, we're all here to listen and commiserate.

  7. I know exactly how you feel. You will get through it but you will still feel like that every now and then. Sometimes I think having a good shout and moan about it is part of the solution, part of accepting how it is. You WILL have good days and weeks again. Keep the faith. Believe in you.

  8. I hear ya! Some days it is so flippin HARD - grrrrrrrr!

  9. Hi! I am a new follower and just want to say I really enjoy your blog. This post is like so many of my thoughts on a daily basis. Nice to know I'm not alone.

  10. I want it all too! Its hard, but just keep telling yourself that none of your hard work is going to waste, that it will pay off. Little by little you will realize that you are getting what you want. It wont be that suddenly you wake up and look in the mirror and like what you see, but little by little you will notice small changes that soon become larger changes and then you realize that you really are accomplishing something.

  11. You can't imagine how much I needed these comments today. Thank you all!

    Skinny Me: You would think I'd lose a few pounds jumping on and off this wagon.

    ShellyD: It's funny 'cause I've flipped the switch a few times and thought losing weight was easy but my switch broke and I can't seem to install the replacement. Sure, sure ... eat less, move more, easy, right?

    Manuela: Depp's version was so dark and creepy. Nothing compares to the Gene Wilder version. Oh, now I have the Ompa Lumpa song in my head ...

    Watching and Weighting: I love blogland. Thanks for letting me vent. I'm afraid to ask how'd you got that nickname? My SIL's online poker name is Veruca Salt. Love it!

    POD: Sometimes it feels like I can't get away from all the crap but I try to believe it makes us appreciate the good stuff. Some of my other nurturing vices may be even worse than food.

    Lady Vea: It really is stupid that we all struggle so much with our bodies and our body image. Thanks for holding my hand and helping me through a bad day.

    Crazylady: I know you are right but when you're down in the pit it is hard to remember what the sunshine looks like.

    FFM: GGGGrrrrr is right!

    LAF: Welcome to my tiny corner of blogland. Thanks for following and I hope to make it worth your while to stop by again and read about my spectular weight loss progress.

    Heather: Right, I need to remember all those baby steps will get me there someday.

  12. I really like the question "If fat is so bad, why do our bodies hold on to it so hard".... seriously, GREAT question.

  13. Hang in there! I totally understand how you feel. It's hard work for small results each week... but it all adds up in the end. You can do this!!!!

  14. Can I say that this is exactly how I feel, word for word? You put it into words 100X better though, and every word is right on the spot. The frustration!! ARGHH!! I totally feel you! Glad I found my way to this post. It was like reading my own vent :) Thanks!

  15. JB: You would think after all these centuries of evolution our bodies would be smarter than that. The majority of us will certainly be fine in the event of a famine. ;)

    FFF: ...and you're always talking about me. It's funny how we're all in each other's heads most of the time, huh?

    She-Fit: I hope you're right. I'm slower than a snail though.

    M3MC: You can come here to vent anytime.

  16. Veruca had it right. I am breaking up with my scale for the next week or so. It isn't budging much and since I am now back to doing everything right I know it is just laying its little digital ass off. So instead of allowing it to be the boss of me, I am going to ditch it until it can treat me right.

  17. Kimberly: Hope you and your scale get back together soon. It's good to see you back!

  18. You know, I don't remember you crawling into my head and plucking my thoughts out, but you must have because here they are!!! Totally me right now - I love it that we both used a picture of Veruca!! :)


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